Habits and upbringing create the biggest contradiction of dread. Aggressive behavior and maltreatment can affect a person's mental health later in life, even in seemingly safe households.
Mars' unconscious information makes healing difficult. Mars and Saturn speak of unconscious anxieties, trauma, generational concerns, and what is buried deep within the body, unlike Mercury and the Sun,
Existential fear is about survival, not only money, food, and security. Sexuality is our unconscious urge for species, gene, and bloodline survival.
Acknowledge your fundamental instincts and the life force we all carry to support them. When you take responsibility for yourself, it doesn't matter if you "seem insane" to others, are introverted or insecure, or disagree with what "must be done."